its kinda hurt thou~~

i juz feel hurt when i see u n ur happy family pictures...=.=

isit because of jealousy??

i cant stand it....y would i go n see stupid things??

after i saw it, i felt like im an extra...i should nt be in between u guys...

cuz i might be the 1 spoiling the whole happy situation...

n i dun 1 to...u looked happy so as ur family....

should it juz break off when i appear??

kinda bad thou....i dun wanna be the 1 destroying...><

·我忍..........

我不是想要打扰你....

我知道你在陪你家人....

可是我会很想打给你....

有好几天没听见你打给我了...

只是纯粹想念你而已.....

我会忍....我不要打扰你陪家人...

也许我开始明白你当初的心情了吧...

我们吵架的原因应该是我忙...而忽略了你.......

我是不是自己犯贱???

自己去看那些会让自己不开心的事....

犯贱!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

我其实不会的,只是自从你说了那些话，

让我很介意....

导致我看到小小事情，就心情低落....

人就是那么自私的...

你不需要放弃你的家庭.....

你当然要负起责任...

只是我希望你是属于我而已...

只是我一个....

我已经是属于你的...在这段时间....除了你...没有人拥有过我...

而且这辈子，我希望我只是被你拥有...

你信吗??

该说的我都说了...只看你对我的信任是多少....

我相信你说的每一句话...

你对我坦白是真的..

可是你说的那些事情，有点难以消化...

你坦白是好,可是不代表我赞成你这样的对我...

这样难道我又要用同一个借口来安慰自己吗???

以前的我已经伤得很深了... 我不想再重复同样的东西...

伤害我自己...暂时的安慰，会让我受到更大的创伤....

我该如何开口呢??????

其实经过那天你说了之后，

我的确有点介意和吃醋的...

再加上今天我看见你的亲密照片（虽然是没什么)

让我发觉我真的很在乎.....

我在乎关于你的一切...

我的生命里只有你是我最不想失去的...当然我也希望只有我是你心中爱的那位...

那些照片和你说的话让我胡思乱想了....><

我知道我应该相信你,可是我很害怕失去你...

所以我什么都没说...因为我不敢说....

只好憋在心中吧....

我不知道该怎么让你知道我有多在乎你...

也许爱你爱到我无话可说吧...我连吃醋也不敢让你知道...

因为我知道我应该了解你...

但我也只是一位普通的女人...

我也会有吃醋和在意的时候...

但我又不敢问,也不敢说...

这样又导致你以为我不在乎你...

其实不是的...我是太爱你而已....

爱你爱到不敢说一些你可能不想听到的事....

我真的很无奈...

你未必能了解到我这一点...

她也很在乎你...选择在你手上...

当然希望你选的是我...

可是我不敢想像结果...

我只是不想失去你...<3<3

lol

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the same fucking problem occurs again....>< aihz

i start thinking the other way again...>< can start to hate myself nw....i force myself dun simply think d....but i just cant help it???? y??y??y???

its just a fuckin phone call k...plz stop being stupid n ridiculous.....isssssssssshhhhhhhhhh

i shud reli understand hw bz n tired he is everyday...same like last time....i totally know u... everything abt u...now i feel diffrent which i dont know y....i feel unsecured...like u might leave me anytime....n i will never hope tht it happen....

i fell in love with him twice in my life~~~ which makes me think that he is the 1....my happily ever after.....

i reli appreciate everything u did for me in d past few months.....i knw ive said this thousand times b4.... but i wanna thank u with my heart....i reli do appreciate everything u did for me....

i just dun like to feel unsecured~~~ ><

应该相信吗??????怎么办呀?????!!!!

我觉得我有时挺多心的.....该想的不想,不该想的就想一大堆.....

也许大家说得对, 我变了....

确确实实的变了....

自信心没了, 安全感没了，不会体谅人了，小小事就心情不好,只好一个人在旁边/家里 emo....

什么都没了....失败~~~~~~~><

我还是想不到办法解决这个......

真的不懂该怎么办?????

很久都不写blog了.....现在觉得blog是我唯一可以发泄的地方.....

只好写blog发泄一切....我觉得我的存在没意思了....

只有你令我觉得我还有一点点的价值的....可是价值越来越低了.....

唉，你看又是我同一个问题出现.....没自信，想东西想太多.....多心了吧??

每次都会有这样的问题...多心又没自信....搞到我要开始讨厌自己.....@@

我该怎么办呢????真的要喊救命了...........@@

你是我唯一活下去的意义....所以你不能离开我, 不然跟杀了我没两样....

或许以前的我活得下去....现在的我已经很脆弱了....我受不了这样的打击...我不是以前的吴舜怡了....

坚强的我不见了....我也还在找回我的坚强.....不懂找到没有呢....也许要很长的时间,也许找不回.....

以前的我，一个人还能活到很快乐...现在的我不行了....我还在努力着找回以前的我.....

我要回到过去.....................想回到过去~~~~~~以前的我死去哪里了???快回来吧....=/

我要活得比从前快乐.....可是我就是需要你的支持......只有你才让我觉得我生命里还有值得珍惜的....

panda eyes @@

omfg.....im worse than panda nw i guess....isssssshhhhhhhhhhhh =.= did not slept well monday night...tuesday night was ok but slept late....LOL....las night 2am++ summore...LOL

I hope that this will not happen again....am i so not TRUSTABLE?????? all i ever wanted from u is ur love n ur trust....that is more than enough to me....

Cuz at my point of view, TRUST is something VERY important in a relationship...i know u dont get used to it...u dont get used to the situation now...

I know its different from d past but i hope u can adapt to it soon...
U're busy as well...when im free, then u're not..when im bz then u're free...
so what can i do to gain ur TRUST???

im trying my very best to make u to trust me...i hope u do as well...no matter how diffrent i act nw, the only thing that doesnt change is my feelings to u...i dont wanna change it..thats y it will never change...unless u change it...so u better not leave me or betray me...u know i cant accept it...ive been a stupid girl ONCE, it will not happen again...i get enough of it....im sick n tired of the stupid shits i faced before...but thank god ive already got what i ever wanted...i got u by my side now...i promised myself that i will NEVER leave u if u r good to me...<3<3 all i ever wanted is U.....