hmm....

i seriously dont know how should i describe my life now?? i feel like i am a body without a soul.... i dont know what i am i suppose to do....just to get a degree 1.5 years later?? i just follow orders now~~~ i dont know how to say NO ....or what should i do to say NO.... im getting sick of life i guess....ill just do whatever you want me to do.... or maybe im tired of fighting for FREEDOM... its reli tiring.... so just let it be....i dont know what more you want...whatever u want from me just say it... but not happiness.. because me myself cant do it and dont have it....so how am i suppose to give it to you?? ill just do whatever you want but not expressing myself happily.... i totally lost my happiness....hmm....where should i find it back??? =/