Once Upon A Time....

hmm....

2011-12-15T23:50:00.002+08:00

i seriously dont know how should i describe my life now?? i feel like i am a body without a soul.... i dont know what i am i suppose to do....just to get a degree 1.5 years later?? i just follow orders now~~~ i dont know how to say NO ....or what should i do to say NO.... im getting sick of life i guess....ill just do whatever you want me to do.... or maybe im tired of fighting for FREEDOM... its reli tiring.... so just let it be....i dont know what more you want...whatever u want from me just say it... but not happiness.. because me myself cant do it and dont have it....so how am i suppose to give it to you?? ill just do whatever you want but not expressing myself happily.... i totally lost my happiness....hmm....where should i find it back??? =/

这首歌唱出我的心声.....

2011-10-10T21:31:00.004+08:00

倒数

怎麼我会说太晚了你不用送
其实我想说可不可以不要走
车里的歌尾奏已经结束
突然我们都沉默你不敢看我
讨厌这样我们都有话藏著不说
你总是那麼处处在意我
越害怕伤害我我感觉越难受
你不懂我没你想像脆弱

热情结束以后冷静开始以后
时间开始怂恿劝深爱的人放弃
我不想倒数还能爱多久不爱我请离开我
勇敢祝福以前找到幸福以前
我会耐心等候并重新适应寂寞
开始倒数开始忘记
值得你的爱已确定不是我

下一个周末会不会就各自过
渐渐少联络这样算不算分手
我会想念你亲吻你拥抱
但我不想欺骗我真实的感受
讨厌这样爱变质后谁都不认得
情人终究不一定变朋友
越相互关心著越加速疏远了
别触碰我在逞强的笑容

热情结束以后冷静开始以后
时间开始怂恿劝深爱的人放弃
我不想倒数还能爱多久不爱我请离开我
勇敢祝福以前找到幸福以前
我会耐心等候并重新适应寂寞
开始倒数开始忘记
值得你的爱已确定不是我

是不是从前我们太懒惰
放任心往相反方向移动直到看不清楚
你说出那一句谢谢你
眼泪忽然夺眶而出快要不能自己
难很困难再见要说的多快乐

热情结束以后冷静开始以后
时间开始怂恿劝深爱的人放弃
我不想倒数还能爱多久不爱我请离开我
勇敢祝福以前找到幸福以前
我会耐心等候并重新适应寂寞
开始倒数开始忘记我们都爱过
热情结束以后冷静开始以后
时间开始怂恿劝深爱的人放弃
我不想倒数还能爱多久不爱我请离开我
勇敢祝福以前找到幸福以前
我会耐心等候并重新适应寂寞
开始倒数开始忘记
值得你的爱我确定不是我
选择了艰难的路走
我相信这样是对的

我的心声.....我不想倒数还能爱多久不爱我请离开我......

I really have no comments...

2011-10-09T23:58:00.003+08:00

I reli dont know what u really want....

I feel that u r treating me like an idiot...

U can just upfront to me.... what do u want??

If u decided to give up on me...just fuckin tell me on my face....

i hope my prediction is also wrong...

But from what i see n what u gave me...

i really do feel so......

I feel tht u wanna go bck to whr u belong but u dun wanna tell it straight on my face....

So Just fuckin continue leave me ALONE...

Dun come on n off...

U make me feel on n off all d time as well...

ON= U care about me but u are bz, thats why u seldom meet up with me....U're damn fuckin bz...

OFF=No....u dun give a fuck abt me...=.= i didnt see u for ages but u dun wanna time for me...not even an hour....because u rather stay home n be with ur family..

I dun wan my life to be so pathetic....its annoying...so please let me go if u dun wan this to continue....=/

My 21st Bday

2011-10-09T23:49:00.003+08:00

thanks to all my frenz who've attended my bday celebration ystdy....i reli did had a great time...Love u guys so much<3<3....u guys make my day perfectly wonderful =)

some of them did accompany me during my hard times as well...i know i cant say anything but only thank you...

Im very disappointed with some1 tht night...he is the 1 shud be arriving but he did not...but at least u guys supported me....so i feel great....

Thanks Guys ^^

Busy Dizzy~~~

2011-09-27T17:22:00.003+08:00

Been pretty bz lately...LOL

i think is the best way to not think about u so much...

Very tired...which is good...

so i can sleep n shut my brain...

im too tired which will nt make me start thinking abt nonsense...LOL

although i dont see u quite often...but i think that will be enough for me.... =)

i dont wanna disturb u while u r bz as well...

but i reli hope i can see u on my bday party in my place....

hope u can make it....=/

i jz need 2 hrs from u....

Saturday went shooting with vince...^^

the pictures r totally AWESOME~~~ LOL

i like the way he work n the results after he work....

finally im tired............

2011-09-13T00:55:00.002+08:00

i try to make myself as bz as possible sometimes....

so that i wont start think of u too much when i have nothing to do...

finally i felt tired today....

i still think of u n miss u but not so much like times before this~~~

i would wanna thank all my friendss who had accompanied me for these times...

i knw i cant be alone....cuz whn i am alone ill start thinkin of u....n hope tht i can see u all d time....

but i dun wanna disturb u while ure bz as well....

i knw hw bz u r sometimes....

i must trust u n trust myself....i need more confidence.....

well mayb it just need some time...=)

nitezz ppl....im reli tired nw...

tired@@

2011-09-08T22:03:00.002+08:00

ASSIGNMENTS~~~~

MID TERM~~~

URGHH~~~~~

i reli need a break......i need to rest =/

ive been so tired ntil i dun evn get to see u...

aihzz.....but i miss u all d time...

WHY??

i soooooooooo wanted to see u~~~ i knw ure bz too...=.=

how is it gonna be??

2011-09-04T11:34:00.002+08:00

when i start thinking of our future , eventually i gonna start crying....

i dun even know that what will our future look like...can't picture it at all....

its like a feeling tht everything is juat a MAYBE....

Maybe we'll have future, maybe we'll not...

i really have no idea...no confidence at all.... is it because of myself (i think too much)?? or is it because i dun receive any response from u??

i always feel that im an extra....i felt so......

n on this position, i dun feel like i can get any future...

Therefore we have no future???

of course i dont hope so....

but just dun feel secured now...=/

seriously hate myself....y i can change so fast???

2011-09-01T10:42:00.002+08:00

i realized when ur by my side, i feel so good n secured...its like i feel like im gonna be with u forever...

but when the moment ur nt by my side....

n ur with ur family, i feel like im an extra....like im nt suppose to be in between u guys...

i want u to be by my side all d time...=.=

i feel secured....my confidence r all gone....=/ i dun used to be like this...

ive really changed~~~ im a dumb stupid person now...emo for nothing~~~

its kinda hurt thou~~

2011-08-30T16:30:00.003+08:00

i juz feel hurt when i see u n ur happy family pictures...=.=

isit because of jealousy??

i cant stand it....y would i go n see stupid things??

after i saw it, i felt like im an extra...i should nt be in between u guys...

cuz i might be the 1 spoiling the whole happy situation...

n i dun 1 to...u looked happy so as ur family....

should it juz break off when i appear??

kinda bad thou....i dun wanna be the 1 destroying...><

·我忍..........

2011-08-30T15:38:00.002+08:00

我不是想要打扰你....

我知道你在陪你家人....

可是我会很想打给你....

有好几天没听见你打给我了...

只是纯粹想念你而已.....

我会忍....我不要打扰你陪家人...

也许我开始明白你当初的心情了吧...

我们吵架的原因应该是我忙...而忽略了你.......

我是不是自己犯贱???

2011-08-30T00:22:00.003+08:00

自己去看那些会让自己不开心的事....

犯贱!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

我其实不会的,只是自从你说了那些话，

让我很介意....

导致我看到小小事情，就心情低落....

人就是那么自私的...

你不需要放弃你的家庭.....

你当然要负起责任...

只是我希望你是属于我而已...

只是我一个....

我已经是属于你的...在这段时间....除了你...没有人拥有过我...

而且这辈子，我希望我只是被你拥有...

你信吗??

该说的我都说了...只看你对我的信任是多少....

我相信你说的每一句话...

你对我坦白是真的..

可是你说的那些事情，有点难以消化...

你坦白是好,可是不代表我赞成你这样的对我...

这样难道我又要用同一个借口来安慰自己吗???

以前的我已经伤得很深了... 我不想再重复同样的东西...

伤害我自己...暂时的安慰，会让我受到更大的创伤....

我该如何开口呢??????

2011-08-28T23:52:00.002+08:00

其实经过那天你说了之后，

我的确有点介意和吃醋的...

再加上今天我看见你的亲密照片（虽然是没什么)

让我发觉我真的很在乎.....

我在乎关于你的一切...

我的生命里只有你是我最不想失去的...当然我也希望只有我是你心中爱的那位...

那些照片和你说的话让我胡思乱想了....><

我知道我应该相信你,可是我很害怕失去你...

所以我什么都没说...因为我不敢说....

只好憋在心中吧....

我不知道该怎么让你知道我有多在乎你...

也许爱你爱到我无话可说吧...我连吃醋也不敢让你知道...

因为我知道我应该了解你...

但我也只是一位普通的女人...

我也会有吃醋和在意的时候...

但我又不敢问,也不敢说...

这样又导致你以为我不在乎你...

其实不是的...我是太爱你而已....

爱你爱到不敢说一些你可能不想听到的事....

我真的很无奈...

你未必能了解到我这一点...

她也很在乎你...选择在你手上...

当然希望你选的是我...

可是我不敢想像结果...

我只是不想失去你...<3<3

lol

2011-08-23T23:51:00.001+08:00

Hmmmmmmmm....... Didn't knw android fone can blog also...lol

Published with Blogger-droid v1.7.4

the same fucking problem occurs again....>< aihz

2011-08-20T23:46:00.003+08:00

i start thinking the other way again...>< can start to hate myself nw....i force myself dun simply think d....but i just cant help it???? y??y??y???

its just a fuckin phone call k...plz stop being stupid n ridiculous.....isssssssssshhhhhhhhhh

i shud reli understand hw bz n tired he is everyday...same like last time....i totally know u... everything abt u...now i feel diffrent which i dont know y....i feel unsecured...like u might leave me anytime....n i will never hope tht it happen....

i fell in love with him twice in my life~~~ which makes me think that he is the 1....my happily ever after.....

i reli appreciate everything u did for me in d past few months.....i knw ive said this thousand times b4.... but i wanna thank u with my heart....i reli do appreciate everything u did for me....

i just dun like to feel unsecured~~~ ><

应该相信吗??????怎么办呀?????!!!!

2011-08-19T23:54:00.002+08:00

我觉得我有时挺多心的.....该想的不想,不该想的就想一大堆.....

也许大家说得对, 我变了....

确确实实的变了....

自信心没了, 安全感没了，不会体谅人了，小小事就心情不好,只好一个人在旁边/家里 emo....

什么都没了....失败~~~~~~~><

我还是想不到办法解决这个......

真的不懂该怎么办?????

很久都不写blog了.....现在觉得blog是我唯一可以发泄的地方.....

只好写blog发泄一切....我觉得我的存在没意思了....

只有你令我觉得我还有一点点的价值的....可是价值越来越低了.....

唉，你看又是我同一个问题出现.....没自信，想东西想太多.....多心了吧??

每次都会有这样的问题...多心又没自信....搞到我要开始讨厌自己.....@@

我该怎么办呢????真的要喊救命了...........@@

你是我唯一活下去的意义....所以你不能离开我, 不然跟杀了我没两样....

或许以前的我活得下去....现在的我已经很脆弱了....我受不了这样的打击...我不是以前的吴舜怡了....

坚强的我不见了....我也还在找回我的坚强.....不懂找到没有呢....也许要很长的时间,也许找不回.....

以前的我，一个人还能活到很快乐...现在的我不行了....我还在努力着找回以前的我.....

我要回到过去.....................想回到过去~~~~~~以前的我死去哪里了???快回来吧....=/

我要活得比从前快乐.....可是我就是需要你的支持......只有你才让我觉得我生命里还有值得珍惜的....

panda eyes @@

2011-08-11T23:59:00.005+08:00

omfg.....im worse than panda nw i guess....isssssshhhhhhhhhhhh =.= did not slept well monday night...tuesday night was ok but slept late....LOL....las night 2am++ summore...LOL

I hope that this will not happen again....am i so not TRUSTABLE?????? all i ever wanted from u is ur love n ur trust....that is more than enough to me....

Cuz at my point of view, TRUST is something VERY important in a relationship...i know u dont get used to it...u dont get used to the situation now...

I know its different from d past but i hope u can adapt to it soon...
U're busy as well...when im free, then u're not..when im bz then u're free...
so what can i do to gain ur TRUST???

im trying my very best to make u to trust me...i hope u do as well...no matter how diffrent i act nw, the only thing that doesnt change is my feelings to u...i dont wanna change it..thats y it will never change...unless u change it...so u better not leave me or betray me...u know i cant accept it...ive been a stupid girl ONCE, it will not happen again...i get enough of it....im sick n tired of the stupid shits i faced before...but thank god ive already got what i ever wanted...i got u by my side now...i promised myself that i will NEVER leave u if u r good to me...<3<3 all i ever wanted is U.....

如果我愿相信你就是唯一.....

2011-05-24T15:19:00.000+08:00

这篇是写给你的....虽然你未必看得见....可是我真的很想跟你说声谢谢....

谢谢你为我做的一切....谢谢你一直在我身边为我做的一切....

总之我就是三生有幸

有你坚持的守护着我....<3<3<3

我一定会一直的陪伴着你，直到永远...
如果你不放弃我，我一定不会放弃你....

这个是我坚持会做的事...
我知道我们之间有时会有阻碍..
可是这个还是不会改变我对你的决定....

你永远是我的唯一...
我希望我们真的能到永远...

我知道你受的压力不少...
我会尽我所能帮你减轻...
如果我帮到你的事,我一定帮....

真的谢谢你...
我爱你<3<3<3

wondering.....

2011-05-24T11:19:00.003+08:00

i wonder if there is anything i can fucking do before i recover....im so gonna bored till i become a statue....>< i look like 1 anyway...so who cares?? is there any diffrence???

Pathetic.....

2011-05-21T14:35:00.001+08:00

pathetic moment of my life.....goshhh....blogging without knowing what should i blog about....><

i have a very good partner,nice family,awesome frenzz......so wad more i need????BLOG???=.=

><....@@

2011-04-11T18:52:00.001+08:00

im boriinnng till im back with blog nw...LOL....unbelievable.....unacceptable LOL....Help me arr~~~~

BLUR@@

2011-04-03T20:10:00.001+08:00

I Hate to be blurrr...........its so annoying ><..... i need to know what is going on.... im like a NOOB....LOL

BORRRRRRIIIINNNNNNGGGGGGG.....

2011-04-03T10:25:00.000+08:00

OMFG....back to blog again...u know how boring am i now....eat , sleep, tv , pc ,hp only.....WTF...ohhh gosh.....no life ....now i can blog every single day... how pathetic isit???>< HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!

10.10.10

2010-10-10T02:46:00.003+08:00

很感触~

这一天是很多人梦寐以求的日子~

也是曾经我梦想成真的日子~

盼望了那么久，可是在三月开始，我的梦已经破碎了~

不知不觉我们也分开了七个月，

虽然有保持联络，但是我们的关系已经不如从前了~

其实我知道我还没完全放下你，

你在我心里占了很多的位置~怎么赶走，也走不完~

你还记得我们的承诺，但是已经没有实践的机会了~

如果你告诉我你会有回心转意的一天，

我真的会笨笨的永远等着你~

等你来履行我们的承诺~

因为你永远是我曾经最爱的人~

我的伤口再次被揭开

2010-09-10T12:37:00.003+08:00

我一直以为我的眼泪已经流干了。我一直告诉我自己我不能再为他掉泪了。可是当我见到那以前的点点滴滴我就忍不住流泪了。就一直流泪不止。在他面前，我假装坚强。背着他我就流泪。我及时才可以放下这个包袱？？

A new Beginning...

2010-06-21T21:29:00.003+08:00

I'm totally over it....its a new beginning for me and my future...=) never look back on d past any more...Cannot turn back the clock....cannot go back to the past....so im looking forward to the future now....=D

忘不了，放不下。

2010-04-04T16:36:00.005+08:00

有些事，说的容易，做的难。。。

虽然已经是两个星期前的事，但我还是放不下。。

我接受不到你不是我未来的另一半。。

我心里早已打算下一辈子都与你渡过。。无论环境顺逆，疾病健康，富贵贫穷，快乐忧愁，终生不渝。。

现在我不知道我以后会怎么办，但是我听了我好姐妹说了一句，
如果我们是有缘分的，始终都会再度复合。。

也许你是我最爱的人。。
这个是无法改变的事实。。
我试着忘记，能吗？？

我虽然已经很少去想了，但是我也是普通人，有时看见别人幸福时，也会回想起我们曾经一起的日子。。

我们的点点滴滴，我永远会记得。。
我只会把这份情意和心情埋在心里。。
我会尊重你的决定。。我到现在还在抱着等待的心情。。
我情愿等。。你说要放下。。但是我真的办不到。。
我觉得等待比放弃对我比较好。。
在大家面前，我可能若无其事，
是因为我不想让任何一位关心我的人担心。。

我会继续坚强的等待。。
I believe my patience will be rewarded someday, sooner or later...

Lazy~~

2010-03-14T13:02:00.003+08:00

now i gie up on blog...i feel that wasting too much time....i used to addict n blog everyday...but now....no thank u...mayb it does help sometimes to say out how u feel...make u feel better when u release it...but still doesnt help u to cure ur pain in ur heart...

Mooncake Festival Night...

2009-10-04T01:31:00.008+08:00

Salt & Pepper Squid Tentacles

Malaysian Food in Perth....

drink ice longan

will is ordering...

my ice longan

No mooncake for me this year...lolx...

But we did kinda celebrate mooncake festival...

once again go to Hawker Stall in roe street with will & serena...and BABY OWEN...=)

we had quite a lot that night...

Baby Owen...

2009-09-03T17:04:00.004+08:00

Just woke up....

Helooo...=)

Baby Owen Huang

A bit blur this 1..

Im thinkin...hmmm

Congratz to serena n william!!! Baby Owen has succesfully came to earth on 31st of August 2009..... He is soooo cute...

OMG...

2009-08-13T23:54:00.002+08:00

Its been soooooooooo long i din update my blog...cuz im lazy n dun knw wad to write actually... a lot of things cannot explain it by words... its been busy time for me...dun reli have mood or time to blog.... but i will still continue after my things are settled...

Tagged By Hui Kien

2009-06-17T21:57:00.002+08:00

Tagged by Hui Kien...sorry so long only do this....long time din write blog d...

1. Besides your lips , where is the favourite spot to get kissed?
my cheeks..

2. How did you feel when you woke up this morning ?
don't wanna go work!!

3. Who was the last person / people you took a photo with ?
my classmates...

4. Would you consider yourself spoiled?
nope..

5. Will you ever donate blood ?
I would...its something i wanted to do long time ago but not yet done..

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex ?
yea...n we are very close frenz...

7. Do you want someone to be dead ?
nope....

8. What does your last text message say ?
from Kenny: call me after your class.....

10. Do you want someone to be with you right now ?
yeah...if can...so wanted someone to accompany me ere..

11. What was the time you went to bed last night ?
3.30am

12. Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now ?
err....dun rmb...lol

13. Is someone on your mind right now ?
yeap....from time to time

14. Who was the last person who text you ?
Kenny

TEN people to do the quiz
1. Lun Chet
2. Li yen
3. Melissa
4. Mei Kheng
5. Karen
6. William
7. Alex
8.Kenny
9.Lilyn
10.Adelin

15. Who is no.2 having a relationship with ?
I dunno wo...i think she is still single lorh..

16. Is no.1 a male or a female ?
err...half half lo...haha

17. If no.7 and no.1 get together , would it be a good?
Not a good idea..

18. What is no.1 studying?
degree in business i guess...

20.Is no.4 single ?
NOt sure...

21. Say something about no.2.
hmmm.....always ffk...

22. What do you think about no.3 & no.6 being together ?
err...no.6 is married...and having a son soon....so not a good idea also..

23. Describe no.9
nice fren...

24. What will you do if no.6 and no.7 fight ?
i don't think they will meet lo...1 in aussie 1 in m'sia...how 2 fight??

25. Do you like 8 ?
nope...i love....=p

26.then do u like 9?
sure, fren mar..

I Miss You

2009-06-05T23:25:00.002+08:00

I miss the days we used to talk
And both sit upon the ground
I miss you making me laugh
Without even making a sound

I miss how it was fit togethe
rLike we were so meant to be
I miss the nights we had it all
When it was only you and me

I miss how you used to smile
Whenever I was walking by
I miss the fact we were one
There was not any other guy

I miss the breathtaking kisses
And the hugs we used to share
I miss you holding me tight
When no body else was there

I miss all the nights we spen
tAnd how we loved to dance
I miss how it was meant to be
But we quickly lost the chance

I miss you, and I still can't say
How I want you baby so much
I miss how my heart could fly
Before it suffered Cupid's touch

I miss running into your arms
The only person who was true
But the thing I miss the most
Is simply... having u by my side

I Love You...

memories...

2009-05-25T22:59:00.002+08:00

jus now was thinking back all my best memories in malaysia...seeing all my old pics...farewell pics...etc...

I really miss things there...can imagine how happy am i when i was with my frenzz...

i knew i got to give up a lot of things when i come here...fren,bf,family...

made a big sacrifice...

but now im used to it....

but still i did not regret that i came here...

i learn new stuff...met new ppl...new frenz...

but i still miz all my close frenz in malaysia...

i dun knw why even hang out with frenz here...it is still a diff feeling when i hang out wih frenz in malaysia...

its completely diffrent...i prefer with my frenz in malaysia...

maybe because years of frenship...

frenz here i knew not even a year...

i dun think i can find someone that i can really talk to....

i still need to chat in skype or msn with my frenz in malaysia to really tell them when i needed someone to talk to...

I wish i had someone who accompany me here...

no one will ever understand the loneliness when u r out alone for lunch, shopping alone urself...

my personal time here is always for work and college...

i don't mind working all the time...cuz i have no where to go...even going out is me & myself...

doesn't mean i don't go out with ppl here...most of the time is with my collegues...or only a tired fri nite out with karen...which is a weekly thingy that we normally do...

but i still cannot find that i enjoy much...i still prefer my frenz...

really looking foward going back malaysia...

Friday Nite Out!!!

2009-05-23T22:55:00.002+08:00

me & karen

I was having class the whole day at college...practical class from 12.30pm until 9.30 pm....which sux!!! lol....but im not working this morning so dats still ok....actually im working very little lately...my salary is gettin lower man...how???i need $$$...cuz something is coming up on august...i need some cash for july...lol...but how leh?? if this situation still continue...i gotta speak up to my boss liao...either look for another job or work 2 job loh..

back to topic, afetr class went home shower & get dress for GBT AGAIN...lol...same thing later...DUSK....must be thinking why the hell im so no life....almost every week same place...cuz im tired after class...dun plan to go far...so same always...i wish i dun have to go classes for friday till nite time...like dat can go nicer clubs in city...that are reli happening...haha...but must see maybe nx semester timetable is good..no fri nite...hehe

new dishes...autumn menu..cooked by me n class mates..

2009-05-22T00:01:00.010+08:00

Tea smoked Quail on waldorf

Seafood Risotto

gnocchi with sun dried tomato

pan fried chicken breast with champagne sauce

roast beef with yokshire pudding...

chicken & vege broth

salmon with red wine jus...

CIty View...

2009-05-18T21:50:00.002+08:00

OMG....this wednesday gt speacialist cuisine prac exam ler...my ingredients dun know all ready or not...scared i missed out some spices...lolz....feel so nervous but exicted in another way....cuz ive never cooked those food b4...so i am actually experimenting on that day it self during exam...lolx...Dead & Gone... haha....

I hope everything is fine in the end.....today whole day working in City View internet cafe....quite a busy day....did quite a lot of work today...but not too boring...cuz gt my collegues drop by...gt company....=)

Lately not so much assignments coming up...cuz starting new units....but will be bz in june....cuz its assignment period again...so now better rest...but lately i don't work dat much as well...we have 2 new staff so no need to work so much d...but less $$ also....=(.....

need to earn more $$ lerr...b4 that 2 frenz b'day, hang out wit frenz...my shopping buy handbags & wallet & other stuff:phone bills,makan,cosmetics... spend quite a lot d......plus now earn so little money...so i need $$!!!!!

My great Grandma is in peace...

2009-05-14T22:30:00.002+08:00

i just received an email frm my mum....i've been told that my great grandma has passed away this afternoon....she is 101 yrs old now.... i felt sorry bout it...but not really sad...cuz im actually not close with her....cuz i seldom meet her....i might only see her once a year last time...cuz she is living far away....so our feeling is like stranger...she might not even rmb who am i...=.=''
but i know she is in a better place right now....i should be glad & happy..... i just wanna hope that she rest in peace...... u will always be in our heart...

my updates...

2009-05-11T21:58:00.002+08:00

Lately very bz with assignments...dun reli hv the time to blog even go out also lazy take pics for blog...=.='' lol...reli tired lor....plus i gt flu lately...not feeling well....so din reli go anywhr....i juz got back from work at City View....tiredzz....lucky tmrw mornin no class d....yay!!! can sleep longer lor!!haha....nice....cuz morning class unit over liao.....hehe.....mothers day was reli bz at work...fucking packed in my restaurant...very bloody tired....omg.....wanna die...

its alll for now...ntg speacial....lol....cuz din go nywhr sure ntg special !!

Healthy Lifestyle!!!

2009-05-03T22:41:00.003+08:00

I love this Doctor !
- read till the end...

Q: I've heard that cardiovascular exercise can prolong life; is this true?

A: Your heart is only good for so many beats, and that's it.... Don't waste them on exercise. Everything wears out eventually. Speeding up your heart will not make you live longer; that's like saying you can extend the life of your car by driving it faster. Want to live longer? Take a nap.

Q: Should I cut down on meat and eat more fruits and vegetables?

A: You must grasp logistical efficiencies. What does a cow eat? Hay and corn. And what are these? Vegetables. So a steak is nothing more than an efficient mechanism of delivering vegetables to your system. Need grain? Eat chicken. Beef is also a good source of field grass (green leafy vegetable). And a pork chop can give you 100% of your recommended daily allowance of vegetable products.

Q: Should I reduce my alcohol intake?

A: No, not at all. Wine is made from fruit.. Brandy is distilled wine, that means they take the water out of the fruity bit so you get even more of the goodness that way. Beer is also made out of grain. Bottoms up!

Q: How can I calculate my body/fat ratio?

A: Well, if you have a body and you have fat, your ratio is one to one. If you have two bodies your ratio is two to one, etc.

Q: What are some of the advantages of participating in a regular exercise program?

A: Can't think of a single one, sorry. My philosophy is : No Pain...Good!

Q: Aren't fried foods bad for you?

A: YOU'RE NOT LISTENING!!! .... Foods are fried these days in vegetable oil. In fact, they're permeated in it. How could getting more vegetables be b ad for you?

Q: Will sit-ups help prevent me from getting a little soft around the middle?

A: Definitely not! When you exercise a muscle, it gets bigger. You should only be doing sit-ups if you want a bigger stomach.

Q: Is chocolate bad for me?

A: Are you crazy? HELLO Cocoa beans! Another vegetable!!! It's the best feel-good food around!

Q: Is swimming good for your figure?

A: If swimming is good for your figure, explain whales to me.

Q: Is getting in-shape important for my lifestyle?

A: Hey! 'Round' is a shape!

Well, I hope this has cleared up any misconceptions you may have had about food and diets. And remember: 'Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in an attractive and well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways - Chardonnay in one hand - chocolate in the other - body thoroughly used up, totally worn out and screaming 'WOO HOO, What a Ride'

AND....

For those of you who watch what you eat , here's the final word on nutrition and health. It's a relief to know the truth after all those conflicting nutritional studies.

1. The Japanese eat very little fat and suffer fewer heart attacks than Americans.

2. The Mexicans eat a lot of fat and suffer fewer heart attacks than Americans.

3. The Chinese drink very little red wine and suffer fewer heart attacks than Americans.

4. The Italians drink a lot of red wine and suffer fewer heart attacks than Americans.

5. The Germans drink a lot of beers and eat lots of sausages and fats and suffer fewer heart attacks than Americans.

CONCLUSION

Eat and drink what you like. Speaking English is apparently what kills you.

Love letter

2009-04-30T22:26:00.003+08:00

老爸的英文情書』 ……………..真的很好笑 .... 摘自台灣日報

老爸一直以追到有校花之稱的老媽而自豪，
但每次講到擄獲老媽芳心的致命關鍵的一封英文情書，
老媽都笑的前俯後仰，經過我們一再催逼，
老媽終於拿出老爸當年寫給她的情書，看了真的是 OH ！ MY GOD ！
很有一套喔！

Dear wang litte sister:
From see you one eye, I shit love you.
Your eyes close, I die; your eyes open, I come back to live. Your eyes close and open again and again,I die again and again.
Maybe you do not remember me, no matter.
When you carefully look at me, you will one see clock.
I think l should introduce myself to you.
I call Li big great. Toyear 25 My home have four mouth people-papa, mama, I and DD.
I am a good man, in a big company work.
I do early fuck every day, so that I can have strong body to protect you.
Please come to eat and sleep with me, or I will cut my hair to be a monk, and find a place where many monks live in to over my life;

Like Your people

哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈 ! 沒有高手翻譯你不會看得懂的喔 ! 全版如下
Dear wang litte sister:
親愛的王小姐

From see you one eye, I shit love you.
自從看到你的第一眼 , 我便愛上你。

Your eyes close, I die; your eyes open, I come back to live. Your eyes close and open again and again,I die again and again.
妳的眼睛閉上，我就死了，你的眼睛打開，我又活過來，妳的眼睛貶啊貶 , 我就死去活來 ?

Maybe you do not remember me, no matter. When you carefully look at me, you will one see clock.
也許你不記得我 , 沒有關係 , 當你仔細看著我，你就會一見鍾情

I think l should introduce myself to you.
我想應該介紹一下自己。

I call Li big great. Toyear 25
我叫李大偉 , 今年 25 ( 今天是 today, 那麼今年就是 toyear. 至於偉就翻成 great 吧！ )

My home have four mouth people-papa, mama, I and DD.
我家有四口人 .. 爸爸、媽媽、我和弟弟。

I am a good man, in a big company work.
我是一個好男人，在一家大公司上班。

I do early fuck every day, so that I can have strong body to protect you..
我每天都做早操，這樣我會有強壯的身體來保護你。

Please come to eat and sleep with me, or I will cut my hair to be a monk, and find a place where many monks live in to over my life;
請嫁給我吧 , 否則我將削髮為僧 , 找個廟來了此一生。 ( 實在想不起「嫁」字怎麼翻譯，好在頭腦靈光 , 嫁過來不就是和我吃住在一起。至於「廟」字 , 也不會翻譯，不過很多和尚住在一起的地方，就是廟。 )

Like Your people 喜歡妳的人

＊原來做早操的英文是 make early fuck ……

dinner friday nite!!!plus GBT & Dusk.....

2009-04-26T02:08:00.002+08:00

Hmm....still no need to work...so we went to my college restaurant that is Pavilion Restaurant to had $25 3 course meal + fine dining....lolx...fuckin cheap cuz students are cooking....the food was absolutely nice....i had green pea soup, Grilled pork Cutlet , Chocolate tart with blood orange parfait...so full ler....still gt coffe in the end...wow...lotz man...karen had almost the same with me just that her entree is diff...she had tandoori marinated chicken in puff pastry for entrees.

Later on, continue with GBT... .went there quite early....so a lil bored until Catherine came & join us and karen's fren paul & danny....so 5 of us at GBT & after that DUSK....as usual...but i left quite early...about 2am i reached home & went to bed....lolx....

Dinner...The Fishy Affair...

2009-04-21T23:03:00.003+08:00

Went out with karen for dinner at NB, James Street...the fishy affair...lolx...so fuckin expensive...but not reli nice food...i only love their garlic bread which is the cheapest 1....karen had caesar salad and i had sizzling garlic King prawns classic style.which its quite expensive and i dun think its nice...tasteless & ntg speacial...lol...after that i went to chill at karen's hse for a bit...then went home...thats 4 today.....cuz my hand injurt so din go 2 work...only this few days free to go out 4 dinner and hang out with frenz...

dats all 4 today...sry no pics...cuz dat time 4 get 2 bring camera...only use handphone ...

100 TRUTHS...!!!!

2009-04-20T11:46:00.002+08:00

I just saw this on melissa's page, lol...soz...nvr read her blog for sometime so just knew dat she tagged me...

100 Truths!

After you've filled this out, tag some people and have them do the same.

1. Last beverage→Iced Longan

2. Last phone call → KenNy

3. Last text message→ Sunita

4. Last song you listened to→ Love Is Not Enough By Raymond Lam

5. Last time you cried → 2 days ago...(twisted my hand...so pain...)

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. Dated someone twice → I guess so...

7. Been cheated on?--> hmm.. yea.. some idoit..

8. Kissed someone & regretted it? Yess...totally...!!

9. Lost someone special? Yes/no? Not really..

10. Been depressed? Yes, feel so down dat i rather die.

11. Been drunk? Nope.Dun like to be drunk.

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:

12. PINK

13. WHITE

14. RED

HAVE YOU:

15. Made new friends → Yea. from time to time.

16. Fallen out of love → No.

17. Laughed until you cried → Yeap..tried before.

18. Met someone who changed you→ Dun think so.

19. Found out who your true friends were→ Yes.. I always knew dat.

20. Found out someone was talking about you→ yeap..she is the speaker in our high school. Talks bad about every1..lol

21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list→ No wor..

23. How many kids do you want to have→ Don't no yet ,but not more than 3...lol

24. Do you have any pets → Fifi,my dog in Malaysia. she is not with me at the moment. miss her.

25. Do you want to change your name→ nope, y wanna change lol??

26. What did you do for your last birthday→ went to an job interview & having lunch alone & went home do nothing just sitting in front of my pc.lol...sad case..cuz 1st time overseas..

27. What time did you wake up today? 11.30am

28. What were you doing at midnight last night→ went out supper at NB with Collegues.

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for →Graduate from UNI as a Degree Holder. lol.. no more assignments!!yay..

30. Last time you saw your father→ 2 months ++ ago....before i came back to perth.

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life → to be slimmer...lol

32. What are you listening to right now → Nothin..

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom → Nope..

34. What's getting on your nerves right now? My ASSIGNMENTS!!! how could i get rid of them??

36. What's your real name →ANG SHUN YEE

37. Relationship Status → Currently attached to Kenny THZ...^^

38. Zodiac sign → LIBRRAA...=)

39. Male or female→ Female ler...abuden??

40. Elementary→ Evergreen...

41. Middle School → SJK(C) LICK HUNG

42 High school → SMK USJ 13

43. Hair color → copper red + black roots..

44. Long or short → Long gua...actually not long not short lor...!!

45. Height → 167 cm

46. Do you have a crush on someone? yea...my bf..haha

47. What do you like about yourself ? Always truthful to my frenz..

48. Piercings → 3 on left ears & 2 on right...i wish i had my belly pierced but scared pain lo..

49. Tattoos → nah...not into it already.

50. Righty or lefty → Righty

FIRSTS :

51. First surgery → When i was 14...had a spinal surgery...

52. First piercing → 12 yrs old i think

53. First tattoo →Nah...don't want 1.

54. First best friend → hmmm....i dun knw who comes 1st...but it doesn't matter..my best frenz are always 1st to me..

55. First sport you joined → Swimming.

56. First pet → Hamster.

57. First vacation→ I think is Pulau Langkawi. when im reli young.

58. First concert → In my memory, might be Christina Milian. i think i went with melissa.lol..

59. First crush → How could i rmb dat...lol

60. First alcohol drink → Carlsberg Beer i guess..

61. Eating → Gotta ask my mum this i guess...

62. Drinking → Gotta ask my mum as well.

63. I'm about to →Go for Lunch.

64. Listening to → Nothing.

65. Waiting for → My fren to join me for lunch...lol...so hungry...

YOUR FUTURE :

66. Want kids? yea..

67. Want to get married? Of course...lol

68. Careers in mind? Own a restaurant..!!=)

69. Lips or eyes → Eyes

70. Hugs or kisses --> err...both??

71. Shorter or taller →Taller...

72. Older or Younger → Older would be better...but not too old..

73. Romantic or spontaneous → both??

74. Nice stomach or nice arms → does it matter?? both gua??

75. Tattoos or piercings→ Non would be good.

76. Sensitive or loud → Non..

77. Hook-up or relationship → Both ....

78. Trouble maker or hesitant→ NON..

HAVE YOU EVER :

79. Kissed a stranger → Nope...lol..

80. Drank hard liquor → Yeap...tried a shooter...

81. Lost glasses/contacts →Both

82. Sex on first date → Nope

83. Broken someone's heart → Yes..

84. Had your own heart broken → Yes

85. Been arrested? Noooooo...

86. Turned someone down → Yes

87. Cried when someone died → Nooope...

88. Liked a friend that is a girl? → Noope..

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

89. Yourself → Sometimes..

90. Miracles → It doesn't happen..

91. Love at first sight → Not really cause it's fairy tale..haha

92. Heaven → Yeap..

93. Santa Claus → No...another fairy tale...

94. Kissing on the first date? → Yeap..

95. Angels → Nooo....lol....fairy tale again...

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

96. Is there one person you want to be with right now? → Yea...my bf..

97. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? → Used to..last time..long time agoo..

98. Do you believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?-> I dun tink so..

99. What's the one thing you cannot live without? Money$$$ , my bestiess, my family..

100. Posting this as 100 Truths?->Yeap

Since asked to tag some1...i'll tag ANy1 who read my blog...^^

我知道是有点长的故事，但是超感人!!!抽空读吧!!

2009-04-15T11:50:00.001+08:00

莫名其妙的和她上床，也糊裡糊塗的接受她。
明知自己不是她第一個男人，但為了孩子，不得不娶她。

就因為不是她第一個男人，他一直懷疑肚子裡的孩子真是他的嗎？
孩子出世了，和他如同一轍，宛如一個模子印出來一樣，
他才承認這是他的對她的疑心也隨著一句句的∼∼孩子跟你好像。∼∼漸漸降低。

今天是他們結婚第二年，沒有鮮花，沒有甜言蜜語，
當然也不會有燭光晚餐。

淑靜照往常一樣靜靜地在家等候柏正，已經十點了，他還沒有回來。
這是當初她選擇他的其中原因之一，但是她萬萬沒想到，博正的處女情節會那麼深。

從結婚到現在，只要淑靜拒絕柏正，柏正都會說：
「又不是沒經驗，裝什麼處女。嫌我技術比妳以前的男人差？」
可是淑靜想要解釋，柏正又說：「好啦！好啦！我知道啦！妳不用說了，
正妳學歷比我高，口才比我好嘛！」

就這樣，淑靜過著做不能做，說不能說的婚姻生活。她好痛苦。
他們平均一個月回去鄉下一次，看公婆也看小孩。小孩已經一歲了，
稍微會扶著東西走路。淑靜除了逗弄小孩之外，還掃地，洗衣；中午她把飯煮好叫大家來吃。

小姑舀了一些蘿蔔湯起來「媽，妳今天怎麼把蘿蔔切的這麼大塊？」
「那是妳二嫂煮的。」婆婆把責任推給媳婦。

淑靜的大伯看到淑靜好像快哭出來，連忙說：「你們怎麼那麼笨，蘿蔔切大塊煮起來才好吃
，妳沒看到外面的人賣蘿蔔湯都是切這樣的嗎？」
淑靜看著大伯站出來替自己圓場，可是博正一句話也不說，心不禁冷了下來。

過年期間，許多親戚都來到鄉下拜年，有的還會住下一，二天；淑靜坐在小板凳，
看著像一座小山的衣服不禁皺起眉頭。
剛剛大伯看到淑靜抱著一大桶衣服往外走，就說丟到洗衣機就好了，
可是婆婆說衣服用洗衣機洗會變皺，而且這些衣服都是新的，一定要用手洗；
淑靜只好把衣服抱到外面洗。迎著冷風，把手伸進冷的像冰的水，又抽離起來，
搓著雙手；她咬緊牙根把衣服一件一件的在洗衣板上搓洗，當她弄好時已經是二個小時後。

晚上婆婆在樓上對著公公發牢騷，「她瞎了是不是？一隻襪子也不知道要拿去洗，
還把博文的衣服染成這樣。」
「淑靜又不是故意的，那隻襪子塞在桶子旁邊，她可能沒看到；
博文的衣服就不要穿了嘛！幹嘛這樣大驚小怪的。」公公在旁幫淑靜說情。
婆婆在樓上講話，幾乎樓下的她們都有聽到，淑靜只能坐在那裡接受審判。

這幾天大伯帶著女朋友去墾丁玩，順道來博正的家住一晚；
因為淑靜在果菜批發商裡做會計，所以早上六點就要上班。
大伯一早起來聽博正說淑靜去上班了，他和女朋友心想淑靜大概還沒吃早餐吧！
兩人買了一份早餐送給淑靜吃。
淑靜接著這一份熱騰騰的早餐，眼淚差點留下來，連她自己的老公都沒這麼體貼。

淑靜懷孕了，連續好幾天晚上電話鈴聲響，博正去接，對方都沒有出聲音，
最後博正有聽到一個男人的聲音。
他掛斷電話，「妳在外面交男朋友？」
「你在說什麼啊？」淑靜一臉疑惑。「妳給我戴綠帽子，是不是？這肚子裡的孩子
是誰的？」博正的臉上寫滿了忌妒，懷疑。
「這肚子裡的孩子當然是你的，還會有誰的？」淑靜撫著肚子想保護她。
「我的？妳想騙誰，男的找到這裡來了。走，去把她拿掉。走。」拉起淑靜往外走
「博正，你不要這樣好不好？就為了一通莫名其妙的電話，
你就判我這種行你太不可理喻了。」淑靜甩開他的手，摸著被他拉疼的地方。
「我不可理喻？對，我就是不可理喻，我就是不要這個孩子，走，去拿他。」
博正不管淑靜的掙扎，硬把她帶到醫院拿掉孩子。

淑靜萬念俱灰躺在床上哭，博正連一句安慰話也沒。
就這樣，只要淑靜一懷孕，他就帶她去拿掉孩子。

淑靜的媽媽遠從花蓮來看淑靜，她看到淑靜消瘦的身材，
面無血色的臉龐，問她，「淑靜，妳是沒在吃，是不是？怎麼瘦那麼多
「有呀！」「有？有會那麼瘦，簡直不成人樣。」媽媽捨不得的說。
淑靜把事情從頭到尾說給媽媽聽，媽媽聽的大發雷霆，

「跟他離婚，我們家這一口飯給妳。」
「媽，妳不要生氣啦！這是我選的，我就該承擔。
「妳怎麼那麼傻，當初為什麼不告訴媽媽，媽媽可以帶妳去做手術。」
「我也沒想那麼多。」
那妳現在怎麼辦？一懷孕就拿掉？妳不知道這比生小孩還要傷身體嗎？」

媽媽真擔心才二十二歲的淑靜怎麼過!
未來幾十年的婚姻生活？

「媽，我也不知道該怎麼辦？」她喑喑咽咽的哭起來。
媽媽拍拍她的肩，「別哭，媽媽帶妳去醫院裝避孕器。既然博正不愛惜妳，
妳要愛惜妳自己，知道嗎？」

淑靜利用果菜市場休假期間回去看小孩，小姑常常向她提起一個男孩子。
淑靜了解小姑戀愛了，可是那個男孩竟比小姑小三歲，公婆當然不答應。

二日來，她觀察小姑每天早上都會從皮包裡拿個像避孕藥丸的東西吃，
淑靜又不敢私自打開小姑的皮包，只好回去時再告訴博正。
「真有這種事？」博正不大相信。「這只是我的猜測。博正，你要不要叫小姑來我們這邊問看看？」
「嗯∼我會打電話給她，先騙她說要帶她去玩，等她來了再問吧！」
博正拿電話家，終於她上勾了，就等她星期日來的時候再說。

「二哥，二嫂，我來了。」博美一進門就找他們。
看到小姑來了，淑靜好高興，「妳來了呀！來，坐。」
博正從房裡出來，「坐車會不會累？」
博美接下二嫂的飲料，「不會，二哥，你要帶我到哪裡去玩？」
「看妳想去哪裡玩，二哥就帶妳去；不過妳要老實的回答二哥的問題。」
博正神色凝重的說。
「幹嘛！二哥，表情那麼嚴肅，好吧！你問。」博美不知死活的喝著飲料。
「聽爸媽說妳交了一個男朋友？」
「嗯！」
「而且還小妳三歲？」
「嗯！」
「你們進展到什麼地步了？牽手？接吻？還是已經……發生關係？」
「我…..」博美不知該怎麼說？

博正看到妹妹的表情和支支吾吾的說不出話來，大概也知道答案。
「爸媽絕不會答應妳嫁給一個小妳三歲的男人，妳知道吧！」
「我頂多不嫁。」博美嘔氣的說。
「不嫁？就跟那個混小子一直鬼混下去？」博正對著妹妹吼。
從來沒有被哥哥罵過的博美，哭了起來。

淑靜坐在她旁邊安慰博美：「小姑，妳哥哥是關心妳，女人總是老的比較快，
他怕到時妳嫁過去，人老珠黃時，那個男孩子會拋棄妳，了解嗎？」
「二嫂，我知道，可是我沒辦法斷啊！我把一切都給他了。」
博美講到這裡越哭越大聲。
「沒有關係，二嫂帶妳去做處女膜手術，只要妳跟他不再往來，好不好？
我們可以再重新開始?」淑靜抱著她。

過了三個月，博美和那個男孩子總算不再往來，
淑靜陪著博美去一家整形外科做處女膜整形回到家，博美拉著淑靜的手，「二嫂，
謝謝妳。」淑靜只是笑一笑。
「博美，妳二嫂已經帶妳去做了手術，以後不管怎樣都不能再隨便和男人上床，
除非新婚之夜才可以，知不知道？」
「二哥，我知道啦！」博美答應二哥，經過這次教訓，她不會再重蹈覆策了。

過了一年，博美經由朋友介紹認識了一個男孩，交往半年，男方說他三十二歲年紀不小了，
要到博美的家提親，博美也答應。

訂婚後，男孩子都會暗示博美想要進一步的發展，但是博美想起二哥的叮嚀，都拒絕他。
自從淑靜帶著博美去做手術後，兩人的關係比姊妹還要親。

3月後博美嫁出去了，淑靜很擔心博美的整形手術不知道會不會成功？
在博美上禮車前，小聲的說：「小姑，明天早上記得打電話給我。」
一早，淑靜就待在電話旁等候，婆婆來叫淑靜去掃地，洗衣，
博正都會替淑靜回答：「媽，我來就好。」
婆婆看著他們兩人感情什麼時候變這麼好，「不用了。」說完就走。

終於鈴聲響了，淑靜馬上接起電話，「喂，小姑……成功了嗎？…真的……好，再見。」
「怎樣？有成功嗎？」博正緊張的問她。
「嗯！成功了。」淑靜笑一笑
博正高興的抱著淑靜，「謝謝妳。」
推開了博正，淑靜苦笑著，「不用謝我，我只是不想再有第二個吳淑靜。」
說完就拿起掃把掃地。

博正聽完淑靜的話，才知道自己傷害她有多深。
他下定決心，從現在開始，他要好好的愛她。

淑靜最近這幾個月的月經都不順，不是太早就是太晚，她不在意；
直到這次的月經血流量多的讓她雙腳發軟，她才去看醫生。

黃太太，妳這種情形已經多久？」醫生看到淑靜從內診室出來，問她。
淑靜坐在椅子上，「大概將近一年了。」
「妳怎麼拖那麼久才來？妳有拿過小孩吧？刮除不乾淨，
再加上傷到子宮壁，妳的子宮裡長瘤，妳最好盡快開刀，要不然對妳不好喔！」醫生建議她。
「醫生，那瘤是良性的還是惡性的？」
「這要等妳開刀後拿去檢驗才知道。」

她六神無主的坐在客廳，連博正回來了她也不知道。
博正脫下外套，看淑靜呆呆的坐在那裡一動也不動，親一下她的臉，
「為了公司的事心情不好？」被突來的親吻驚醒的淑靜，
一想到她和博正好不容易才剛開始的甜蜜生活，萬一在開刀中不幸走了，
那她怎麼走的開？「妳怎麼哭了？什麼事讓妳這樣苦惱？」
博正擦擦她的淚。「我要開刀。」
「開刀？為什麼要開刀？」博正看她好好的。
「因為以前拿孩子太多次了，刮除不乾淨，再加上傷到子宮，我的子宮裡長瘤。」
淑靜把醫生診斷的話說給博正聽。
博正不敢相信自己以前的作為竟然造成淑靜現在的傷害那麼大，
「什麼時候開刀？我陪妳。」
「不用了，以前我生病你也沒陪我，這次我自己去就好。」淑靜不敢奢望。
「淑靜，妳不要這樣好不好？我陪妳去，從頭到尾陪妳。」
博正為自己的不是開始後悔。

開刀房前，淑靜的媽媽看到博正緊張的走來走去，
不屑的說：「博正，你現在走來走去是走真的？還是走給別人看的？要不是你醋桶那
麼大，逼著淑靜一懷孕就拿掉，她今天會躺在開刀房任人宰割嗎？我是把話跟你講在前面，
淑靜有個三長兩短，可別怪我不客氣。」

博美看到親家母生氣的樣子，連忙出來替哥哥說情，
「親家母，我二嫂不會有事的，二哥最近也對二嫂很好。」
「最近才對她好有什麼用，平時不珍惜。」淑靜的媽媽替女兒打抱不平。
「媽，對不起，我知道錯了，請妳原諒我。」
博正一臉慚愧的站在丈母娘面前讓她數落

過了二個小時「吳淑靜的家屬」護士門口喊。
看到有人走過來，「你們是吳淑靜的家屬？她已經在恢復室，看誰要過去陪她？」
淑靜的媽媽雖然想要進去，但她知道目前淑靜最想看的人是誰，所以就叫博正進去。

博正跟著護士來到淑靜的病床旁，淑靜的麻醉藥劑還沒退，躺在病床上像睡著一樣，
消瘦的臉經過開刀更加沒有血色。
博正深呼吸盡量不讓眼淚留下來。他聽護士的話，盡量跟淑靜說話不要讓她睡著。
淑靜隨著麻醉藥劑漸漸退了，身體的病痛也越來越難過，她拉扯床巾，
一直搖頭喊痛。

博正一夜沒睡陪著她，這就是他種下的孽，也是他要承受的果。
可是淑靜受的苦比他還多。

第二天，醫生來探房，簡單的和淑靜問幾句話後，叫博正出來。
「你太太的檢驗報告出來了，是惡性腫瘤，而且已經轉變成癌症。」
博正不敢相信，「會不會檢驗錯了？」
醫生搖搖頭，「黃先生，她剩下的日子不多，好好陪她吧！」
看到博正進來，淑靜問他，「博正，醫生跟你說什麼？怎麼那麼久。」
「沒事，他只是說這幾天傷口好了就可以出院了，我剛剛去打電話給媽媽，
告訴她這個好消息。」
「喔！是這樣。我想睡了，可不可以請你幫我把床搖下來一點。」
「好。」博正慢慢地把床搖下來，看著淑靜睡了，眼淚一滴滴的掉。

「你還我女兒來…還我女兒來……她好好的一個人嫁到你們家，做牛做馬，
毫無怨尤……你還這樣對待她……你還是人嗎？」博正跪在靈前，任由丈母娘怎麼
打，怎麼罵，他都不還手也不還口。

是他對不起她，是他害她年紀輕輕的就這麼走了。
「親家母，別打了，我知道這對妳很不公平，可是人死不能復生，妳就別再傷心了。」
博正的爸爸扶起她。

「把她送回花蓮。」淑靜的媽媽很痛心的說。
博正的媽媽一聽到馬上反對，「不行，親家母，她嫁到我們家來就是我們的人了，
怎麼可以把她送回去？」

「你們的人？你們有當她是你們的人嗎？大冷天的叫她一個人洗一大桶的衣服，對她
喚東喚西的，一下子要她做這個，一下子要她做那個，我看她是你們的僕人吧！」
淑靜的媽媽把淑靜回娘家時說的苦處全說出來。
「妳……」博正的媽媽說不出話。

「我地已經買好了，她生前都沒人疼，死後你們會去看她嗎？」
「媽，我求求妳，把她留下來好不好？」博正跪在淑靜的媽媽面前。

「博正，不是我要把你們分開,可是你有沒有想過，當你硬拖著淑靜去墮胎時，淑靜
也是像你現在求我的樣子在哀求你，求你相信她，求你讓她生下孩子，可是你是怎麼對
待她的？她每次一懷孕，你就帶她去墮胎。」

博正的爸爸一聽到親家母的話，走過去揍博正一拳，
「你這個畜生，你竟敢這樣對待淑靜，看我怎麼修理你。」
他一拳一拳的揍在博正的身上，直到博文強拉開爸爸。

「親家母，妳帶淑靜回去吧！」博正的爸爸答應她。
今天是淑靜的忌日，博正牽著孩子來花蓮祭拜她。
淑靜的媽媽正彎著腰拔著雜草，口中念念有詞的對著女兒說話。

聽到一聲「媽。」她回過頭看到博正和孫子，不理會他們，繼續手上的動作，
「你來這裡做什麼？你不覺得已經來不及了嗎？」

博正把鮮花放在瓶子裡，因為淑靜在過世前，曾對他說：「博正，我沒有作對不起你的事，
你要相信我。萬一我死了，可以送我一對鮮花嗎？」
即使是每天一束花他都願意，只要淑靜可以活過來可是已經來不及了。

「這時淑靜的媽媽從袋子裡拿出一本厚厚的書交給博正。
∼我遇到那個叫博正的男孩，我! 好喜歡他…………

今天騎車和人家相撞，右腳的傷口好大，痛死了，全身酸痛，而且月經也來了，好
奇怪，才十天而已怎麼就來了？……………

∼∼博正今天帶我去海邊玩，全身曬的紅通通的，下次要去海邊一定要記得擦防曬油………

∼∼昨天晚上和博正睡在一起，第一次好痛喔！
可是為什麼我沒有流血呢？奇怪，大家不是都說會流血的嗎？
博正會不會誤以為我不是處女呀？…………

∼∼糟糕，月經已經超過一個月都沒來，怎麼辦？
會不會是懷孕了？………….

∼∼博正聽到我懷孕了，說要娶我，我好高興，可是他是因為愛我才娶我？
還是因為肚子裡的小孩呢？……

∼∼明天就要結婚了，我一定會好好的愛他，也會愛他的家人………淑－靜－」

博正概略的看完整本日記，大聲的喊著她的名字。
「對不起，我對不起妳。妳原諒我好不好？淑靜……..」他跪在地上把頭一直撞墓碑。

「起來吧！她最愛的人是你，每次她回來說起你家的事，雖然很傷心，
但她都一一承受起來。只要你相信她，我想她在九泉之下會瞑目的。」
淑靜的媽媽拉他起來.

博正坐在地上，扯著頭髮，「我現在才相信她，已經太慢了。」
淑靜的媽媽拉下博正的手，「博正，不會太慢，淑靜這孩子心很軟，
只要你真心誠意的相信她，她一定會原諒你的。」

每年，淑靜的墓前都會有一個男人，彎著身，拔著雜草，口中喃喃有辭的對她說話。

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思念總在分手後....

為何總在失去後,才發現那是你的最愛!!

男人就是這樣,總是希望自己的女人是處女....第一次就是要給他!!

但他們有沒有想過,若是處女又不見得是第一次...(可以去重做一個)

若不是處女又不一定不是第一次...(可能不小心傷到)

話又說回來,男人希望自己的老婆是處女,

自己又喜歡在婚前多玩幾個,這不是很矛盾嗎?

由此可見,男人最自私....(當然也有少部份優質男性)

但願像這樣的故事,能警惕各位男士,別讓它發生在你身上...

好好愛惜你身邊的她吧

愛她疼她多照顧她

*******看完后眼泪忍不住流了下来。。。

A Stupid night....Kind to others means cruel to urself

2009-04-13T12:52:00.003+08:00

Last night suppose to be just some supper & back home to sleep...but something happened after a phone call...Last night me,howard,william & serena had supper in "Hawker Stall" Restaurant...the food was reli reli nice....=) love them...when we are eating half way..."cxxxxxx" called howard...howard has a very weird expression after ans the phone..and he passed me the phone...he said his "dai lou"(some kinda gangster big brother) hope that he could have his own car...cuz stayin so far frm work...so his "dai lou" plan to sell him a hyundai xcel for AUD $2000...lolx...but the main thing is...he dun have australian license or a legal license to drive..although he knows how to drive...dunno why he insist to drive dat car...so last nite actually is his "dai lou" let him try to drive for 1 day for "FREE" see he like it or not loh...but ystrdy nite he scared got road block so he asked me if i could be the driver..since i am having supper near his work place, im thinking wateva lo...drive only mar...then he said he finish work at 1am++...means 1.30am...lol...by the time we finish supper is only 12.45...so me & howard thought 4 a while whether to leave him alone or stay to drive his car..so we decided dun be so bad & cruel broke our promise...lol...so we've stayed back & waited so we go "dah kei" until 2am only he said can leave lo...nvm wo...when i drive his car got weird sounds from the engine lo, then we go pump petrol 1st cuz no petrol d...then after petrol the car cannot start wo...waited a while later then can start liao...so i thought no problem gua...then continue go freeway wanted to go home jor...damn sleepy while waitin 4 him...go out freeway not yet 5 mins only, the engine smoking liao...=.='' we are stuck in the middle of the freeway...fuck man!!why am i so kind to help him drive his car home...lol..its reli reli tired d...summore howard more kesian gotta wake up 6 in the mornin leh...when his car broke down...the main thing he was worried is his car & his "dai lou" only...but guess wad??his so call "dai lou" does'nt fucking care wad happen to him...at dat moment he still dun understand who is his true frenz lor...me & howard felt so disappointed...we tried to help him as possible...so we called & called try to find a way to settle his car...lol..and we think dat we shud call ataxi home 1st...cuz me & howard so tired d...and sleepy loh...so he call us to leave 1st...but on our way home in the taxi we still continue help him...he kinda blame us for leavin him thr alone...but wad we can do???we help as much as possible d...at least we are the 1 beside him until 3am...lolx...wad abt his dai lou??did he come & save him??...i juz knew dat even william & serena was so worried dat something bad might happen...so they did not sleep the whole night...but they were wonderin why we din call them so they tot we r fine...but we tot they were asleep so din wake them up lo...at last reach home and shower liao is 4am...=.=''tired...zzz

New Game now!!!haha...

2009-04-12T01:02:00.002+08:00

now stopped playin L4D....now is COD4...is a reli cool game...but im not gud enuf yet...need more prac lol...haha...just now was playin COD4 with william & howard...awesome man...COD4 roxx!!

Another tsunami??? July 22nd

2009-04-09T23:38:00.002+08:00

Hi, Please be more cautious as the warnings has been given. Attached a photo for u.
I just received this message from a colleague. I don’t know the source of the message; I also don’t know the credibility of the content, but just beware. Below is the content on the message: “Hello there. I just wanted to let you know that please stay away from the beaches all around in the month of July. There is a prediction that there will be another tsunami hitting on July 22nd. It is also when there will be sun eclipse. Predicted that it is going to be really bad and countries like Malaysia (Sabah & Sarawak), Singapore, Maldives, Australia, Mauritius, Si Lanka, India, Indonesia, Philippines are going to be badly hit. Please try and stay away from the beaches in July. Better to be safe than sorry. Please pass the word around. Please also pray for all beings.”

Received this email frm a fren....lolx

Holiday Liao!!!

2009-04-07T23:00:00.003+08:00

Finally its holiday .....bought a new bag (GUESS)ystrdy...i like the colour...its AUD $179 not that expensive i think quite worth it lo i worked so hard, should buy something for myself ... like my new bag...=) holiday i still gotta work almost full time lor... so tired...summore got assignment to follow up!! lolx

dats all for now...

Friday Night....at GBT & Dusk...AGAIN...

2009-04-05T23:54:00.003+08:00

i had meat & butchery exam in the morning...so tired...but thank god i passed...lolx...everytime go clubbing must be GBT & dusk...cuz its near...haha...last friday went with karen & Catherine...ntg special...its just another nite out....we went home quite early...cuz every1 its a bit tired & the music in Dusk reli sux...makes me sleepy lor...so we left & went for MC Donalds...as we always do....haha...but the MC chicken burger meal sux...the chicken is dry & hard cuz its over cooked...damn fucking hard to eat...taste like shit....lolx...but so hungry so i took a few bites only...karen just threw the meat out of the car & eat the bread lol....after the i just drop them home & i reached home at 2am....

i think thats all for friday...

not again?!

2009-03-27T09:11:00.002+08:00

ystrdy i think my dessert section was slow again lo...i was trying all my best to help my section... lucky sunita cooperate wit me...lol....another 1of them like dun fucking bother abt her tarts loh.. but lucky we made it before desserts order starts...summore got some VIP from ireland come to eat..lolx...im so fuckin stressed out tht time...Please no more desserts again....its been 4th week in dessert section...lucky nx week...Mains section...=) its tough as well...but i prefer that...hate pastry....Thank god nx week change section..

Supper at Northbridge after work...Uncle Billy...

2009-03-23T10:04:00.003+08:00

Howard

william & serena

Port Wine Quail

We had peking duck at uncle billy last night after work...i went with my collegues...will,serena ,howard & lilyn..but lilyn left home early cuz her mum ring up & *%$#$% haha...so she gotta go...but the food wasn't that good i would prefer "The Hawker Stall" restaurant at NB for dinner...the food there are reli reli good man...=) Last nite we also ate Salt & pepper pork big intestine, garlic chilli beef with yau char kway,Port wine Quail, Yee mee with duck, Hong Kong Style spicy La La...to be honest all of them was not very satisfying...except for the peking duck "skin", even the peking duck pancakes are bad...only taste like flour loh...and my fav S&P pork big intestine bormally is nice after deep fried...but theirs is not very nice..so i dun reli like anything from las nite...but we gotta finish all of them lerr...so damn full las nite...

Tmrw Poultry & Game Exam!!!

2009-03-19T23:27:00.002+08:00

Just done revision...i gt theory & Prac test tmrw man...lolx...so tired...so scared lo...wish me luck guys...Hope i Can Pass!!!!!!! I dun wanna Re-enrol lor....

Assignments d whole day....BORED with it...

2009-03-16T21:39:00.004+08:00

Whole day facing the PC...wanna die loh... but after tired of assignments...i went to city view to play L4D again with Queenie,Charles,jason & William... William cheats!!lolx... Tmrw onwards is college day again...dun know when is the next time to play L4D...

WTF??!!!

2009-03-16T00:10:00.002+08:00

Dat stupid "purple haired guy"...OMG...WTF?? he write bad things on his blog about my cousin...although he din write her name out...but from his blog i know he is writing bad things about her...OMG please "he" tot my cousin swearing him in her blog...but dats not true...he misunderstanded the blog u know why?? he is not good in english!!! LOLX...WTF??!! i read it i felt that my cousin is so innocent...he is such a bastard....he dun understand & know some1 please dun comment abt her...u dun even know her!!! u juz tot that she is wad u saw...how much more u know??? how can u say such words to her???she always wanted u guyz to be happy..but have u ever tot dat b4 this how u treat ur GF??a guy who hits a girl is always UNTRUSTED!!! If my bf ever beat me...no matter what...i will never continue the relaationship...U the purple haired guy SHUT UR FUCKING MOUTH MAN...FUCKING STINGY STUPID UNEDUCATED NOT GENTLEMAN GUY!!!

SAD story...

2009-03-15T00:30:00.002+08:00

I heard from my cousin today...she & her best fren CJ r not frenzz anymore..im so shock...as they were frenzz for so long...although im not close to CJ but i knw she is a cool fren....but i never ever tot dat she would leave her frenz bcuz of a purple haired guy!!im not to say im not happy she is 2gether with him again but wad she did really hurt my cousin alot...i think i under estimated her...she doesn't need to choose between fren & BF...its so unnecessary!! We always wanted ur hapiness but we din expect u to leave us!!will u be happy without ur frenzz??

Left 4 Dead is the best game ever...=)

2009-03-13T22:48:00.002+08:00

This morning i wake up then go to work place again the 1st thing...go there Vacuum carpet =.='' cuz las nite too late din vacuum & dats my job so go do it this mornin...after dat i ate wanton noodle & went of to school..whole day practical....12.30-9pm lolx...

Tired tired...

after class went to work place to watch EU & play " Left 4 dead"...hehe

play until 11.30pm only left ...so damn nice...but lilyn its not with us today...

is queenie,howard , me & william

im still so addicted to this game...dun knw y...lolx

My desserts are beautiful today...compliment from lecturer!! =)

2009-03-12T13:31:00.002+08:00

i finished assignments until 2.30am last night..lol...just had 5 hours sleep...so tired....got restaurant class at 9am this morning.. im still in desserts section summer pudding again...cuz my pudding last week was a disaster...!! But i get improved now...=) thx to chef smith...he do guide us on the right path...although he is quite strict...but i know he will help us to improve...he will compliment on good dishes as well...but he will also critic rubbish dishes...lol...pretty strict huh... but it is wad it is...i will improve better i know....gotta work tonight again...i haven't had any proper meal today...lol...no breakfast , junk food lunch...dinner at 10pm...swt =.=''

Can't Fight The Moonlight

2009-03-11T22:14:00.003+08:00

Under a lovers' sky

Gonna be with you

And noone's gonna be around

If you think that you won't fall

Well just wait until

Til the sun goes down

Underneath the starlight - starlight

There's a magical feeling - so right

It'll steal your heart tonight

You can try to resist

Try to hide from my kiss

But you know

But you know that you can't fight the moonlight

Deep in the dark

You'll surrender your heart

But you know

But you know that you can't fight the moonlight

No, you can't fight it

It's gonna get to your heart

There's no escape from love

Once a gentle breeze

Weaves it's spell upon your heart

No matter what you think

It won't be too long

Til your in my arms

Underneath the starlight - starlight

We'll be lost in the rhythm - so right

Feel it steal your heart tonight

You can try to resist

Try to hide from my kiss

But you know

But you know that you can't fight the moonlight

Deep in the dark

You'll surrender your heart

But you know

But you know that you can't fight the moonlight

No you can't fight it

No matter what you do

The night is gonna get to you

Don't try then

You're never gonna win

Underneath the starlight - starlight

There's a magical feeling - so right

It will steal your heart tonight

You can try to resist

Try to hide from my kiss

But you know

But you know that you can't fight the moonlight

Deep in the dark

You'll surrender your heart

But you know

But you know that you can't fight the moonlight

No, you can't fight it

You can try to resist

Try to hide from my kiss

But you know

Don't you know that you can't fight the moonlight

Deep in the dark

You'll surrender your heart

But you know

But you know that you can't fight the moonlight

No, you can't fight it It's gonna get to your heart

Haven't finish assignments for tmrw....Hate It!!!

2009-03-11T21:36:00.002+08:00

This morning left home at 10.30am....eat cup noodle at work place as breakfast lo...after that start work at 11am....until 1.40pm....eating lunch for 5 MINS...lol...cuz gotta rush for class at 2pm....so rushed to college and while waiting for lecturer continue my take away lunch...finished before lecturer came...hehe....=p....class until 4pm...1 hour break...start 2nd class at 5pm...until 9.20pm...we finished late today....=(....after class i checked my phone...8 Miss call from william.... lol...he ask me wanna eat KFC or not wo...lolx...=.='' swt...of cuz i want lerr....im so hungry afta class wei...so i went to work place after class...eat KFC....cannot play left 4 dead d...cuz late jor...hmm..nvm le...can play tmrw...or on saturday & sunday...hehe....by the way the stupid KFC got problem...i got stomach ache now after eating it....lol...william also get stomach ache...aikz...KFC not dat good lerr....now i gotta continuewith menu planning assignment dat is due tmrw...lol...still got some dishes to add in the assignment...aikz...gotta do now lol....!!!

Just Back From work...=)

2009-03-10T21:46:00.002+08:00

another tired day for me...have college from 10-12 int the mornin. after that i went lunch with veronica & Sunita for Lunch at my work place (MR.HO Chinese Restaurant) my friends like the food there so we go there every tuesday lerr...and then went home for a bit to chill...continue bulk cookery class at 3-6pm... guess wad?? start work at 6 as well....rush!!!.... today is not dat busy...so lucky....or else i m dead.....after work as usual we eat dinner together lo...after that...the most interesting part..."Left 4 Dead"...haha....me,william,queenie & Lilyn...haha...is just a half an hour game...but still i like the game...=)....dats all 4 today...tata!!

Addicted to " Left 4 dead"

2009-03-10T12:31:00.003+08:00

omg...my collegues are playing left 4 dead later...feel wanna join them...but got class later 3-6...=( and then working 6-9...lolx.... can't play today....i can't believe im so addicted to it ... cuz i seldom addicted to PC games...but this game is AWESOME!!

whole day on PC man!!! so sleepy now...

2009-03-09T20:55:00.000+08:00

This morning i done part of my assignments then my collegue call me to go to the internet cafe & we started to play " left for dead" for 7 hours....non stop.,..wow...so addicted to it man....really cool game...haha...now i gotta continue with assignments again ler...tata...

Morning Guys....

2009-03-09T09:03:00.000+08:00

Just woke up feeling lazy lying on the bed now....gotta start to do assignment soon...=( omg... don't know where to start...

Tired Life..

2009-03-08T22:31:00.000+08:00

Its really been busy for the past few weeks...i've been busy on college, work, & ASSIGNMENTS!!!....i have 2 due next week...i haven't complete anything... damn it... i even dun have the time to talk to him...we seldom spoke this 2 weeks...he has his own problems and so do i... so we don't really have the time for each other...but i still miss him so much...everyday... I can't wait till july...i really wanted to go back to malaysia again...still miss life there with all my frenzz..Few more months to go...

College & Assignments Again!!!!!!!!

2009-02-16T20:45:00.000+08:00

I really dun feel like doing assignments...

Damn a lot lorh.....

summore now 2nd semester is getting harder...=.="

So Kesian...

我撞车了!!!哎哟。。。

2009-02-11T10:00:00.000+08:00

我昨天探望朋友后，回家的路上，因为前面的车紧急刹车，害到我停不及，而轻轻的撞了他的车尾。。他的车是没花没烂。。。但我的车头就扁了一点。。。没有很严重啦。。。但是当时情况我真的很害怕。。而且这是我的第一辆车。。。这么快就扁了一点。。有点不甘愿。。不过还好不需要修。。对不起啊。。。亲爱的车。。。

上天又给我们另一个考验

2009-02-02T22:06:00.000+08:00

我们毕竟已经在一起一年多了。。。从来没有吵过架，没有闹分手。。。我们一直坦诚相对。。没有欺骗对方，我出国了，我们要在那么远的距离维持我们的感情，又有父母的不赞成。。。喜欢他和缠着他的异性朋友又多，甚至他还放不下对以前女友的感情，我可以完完全全不介意!!因为我信任他，我知道无论发生什么事，他也不会瞒着我和做对不起我的事。。。但是他这次对我的坦白却让我难以接受。。。到现在，我无法想像到我以后是否能接受这件事。。。我也是个女生。。。怎能不介意呢??我希望他能放下这件事。。。我知道很难。。。不过这样对大家也好啊。。。我真的很心痛。。。

I really missed the days we went to pangkor island...2D1N trip...although is just 2 days...but the memories will always be with me...

New Blogger !!

2008-06-28T13:35:00.000+08:00

Just created a acc to start blogging...haha...before this don't online frequently so no point for me to start my blog...until nw only my parents bought me a new labtop for my future when i enter college in Australia..